So yeah that happened. I thought only back woods hicks did this. Guess I proved myself wrong. Before this happened, I really wanted to fuck him. Not since we were little or anything, only in the past few weeks. I don't know what changed. We didn't really grow up together. Yeah I saw him on most weekends when I was very little probably 4 years old to about 10 , but we weren't best buddies or anything.
I was a cunty little brat and he is 8 years older than me, so we didn't really even get along very well. A very long time passed without seeing him. I was doing my own thing, moving around. Didn't see him for probably 15 years or so. A few years back I saw him at a 4th of July party with the rest of my family. Didn't think anything of it, was with my boyfriend at the time.
We're big time drinkers in my family, so needless to say everyone was pretty toasted by the end of the night. I was sitting with my cousin and he put his arms around me and hugged me. Again, didn't think anything of it, just thought we were all drunk and since we hadn't seen each other in a long time I just thought he was being sweet. But my boyfriend didn't think so. He flipped the fuck out and accused my cousin of wanting to fuck me. I lost my shit on him and told him that there is no way in fucking hell my cousin would ever even consider that.
Kicked my boyfriend out of the party and he walked home, a very long ways away lol. But nothing happened, just a lot of shock and disgust and embarrassment from my family about my boyfriend even thinking that. A few years and boyfriends later, we end up at the present day. I'm 28 and my cousin is I had some car troubles and since my family on my dad's side are all mechanics, my dad and cousin helped me fix it up. I had been seeing my cousin a bit more frequently, with moving back to the area and hanging out with all my cousins who I never really connected with as a kid.
But anyways, after fixing my car, which I am super thankful for, we sat on his porch and drank out faces off all night. I ended up mentioning that night about my ex boyfriend being so crazy suggesting that my cousin wanted to hook up with me. We both kind of shook our heads and laughed it off and agreed that it was so weird and crazy. But in that moment, I kind of knew that it was true.
As we were laughing it off you could kind of see that we were both kidding ourselves. I don't know if it's pheromones or what, but there had been a very strong pull towards each other. We both knew it but wouldn't acknowledge it. We're grown ass adults. Not some preteens with hormones running high and needing to experiment.
From what I've been reading that seems to be the majority of cousin sex stories. Teenagers fucking around being teenagers. We went to a bar for a family party two weeks ago. To keep a long story short, I drove him there, was too drunk to drive at the end of the night, and stayed at his place.
I knew he wanted to do something though. I was organizing left over food from the party in his fridge and he just showed up in his boxers smiling at me. He was fucking hammered so I just directed him to his couch and put a blanket on him. Woke up the next day, he made breakfast, got some coffee and I went home. And I masterbated all fucking day. I wanted so badly to fuck him that night. So I diddled myself. I felt super dirty about it but I just was so fucking turned on by the prospect of fucking him.
He's exactly my type too. So I have been going out of my way to make excuses to see him. Most times I would just hang out with him until around 10pm and go home. We laugh, sing songs and generally just have an overall great time cracking jokes and cracking beers. Party at his house. Same old, just drinking and hanging with family.
He was getting kind of touchy towards the end of the night. He tends to do that. Just like hugging, saying love ya cuz, being a generally jolly guy. But when everyone went home and I was the last one left, it was different.
I could see he so badly wanted to say something. He would start saying things like, "ugh, I just wish Obviously I knew what he was saying. I said "yeah, me too. I knew it was happening that night. The draw was just too fucking strong.
So I hugged him back and we just embraced for a while. It's so fucking strange wanting to be with someone and not being able to! Especially when the feeling is mutual. But he said again he wished things were different and I just made the first stab at it.
I told him "I have a crush on you. I usually just say to guys "I want to fuck you" but you can't really just up and say that to your cousin haha. So that was it. But, some of my other family literally lives next door to him, so I pulled away real fast. I told him that you can't do that outside, we need to go inside.
Game on mother fucker. So we just started ravaging each other. I won't go into detail but we did everything besides actually fuck. And not like we wouldn't have, you know, just drinking kind of prevents that.
He was super sweet. He was giving me the eyes. The eyes someone only gives you when they're completely in love with you. Not lustful, but if you've seen it you know what I mean.
He was caressing my face, holding me really close, just being overall really loving. Some of my past boyfriends weren't even that real with me haha. Of course there were the moments of "we really shouldn't be doing this" him saying it, not me.
But I just laughed and said that the bridge has already been crossed so fuck it. We ended up just laying together and him holding me. It was really nice. He told me he loved me. That kind of shocked me. Well, he always drunkenly says he loves me, but this time it was "I love you.
So he went to bed and I snuck out before morning. I just wanted to post this because I just don't know what to think. It's the next day, I feel good, but at work my stomach kept dropping like impending doom but also excited butterflies. I've been through so much in my life, it's been a long time since I've even felt anything remotely like this.
But I can't act on it. I can't tell anyone. My family would disown us, for sure. He has a young teenage son, what would happen to him mentally if he found out his dad committed fucking incest. I mean, we most probably will hook up again. We're really close and attracted to each other.