Search for your nearest Brook sexual health service here 'I slowly realised I was bisexual' Pippa's story Read Pippa's story, written by her and told to Brook.
It includes some great advice for anyone who is struggling with their sexuality and addresses some of the myths and misconceptions about being bisexual. But the first time I watched a film or tv show and felt sexually attracted to the person on the screen, it was a woman — a scene in American Pie, I think! So I had two things to worry about! I spent nights lying awake, thinking things like this: I felt lonely and bottled everything up.
I decided that the only thing that would make it better was to talk about it. So the second, third and fourth times I told people, they were complete strangers. I knew I needed to talk to someone before my mental state hit a dangerous low and I was too scared of what my friends and family would think, so I found other ways to talk about it. I joined an LGBT-friendly lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender website where people offer each other informal support.
They kept their social media groups and everything very secret because they understand how hard it can be, so I felt safe knowing no one would find out. There was also a nearby LGBT charity with a youth group so I contacted them and asked if there was anyone I could talk to about this.
The third time I told someone was a text, sent to a friend, on Christmas day, from the bathroom of my family home. I hid in there for half an hour with the door locked, thinking about whether to press send or not.
There were definitely awkward moments, strange conversations, and decisions I would make differently if I could re-do them, but every time I told a family member or close friend, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted!
Mean people will always find things to judge you for, so trying not to care what they think is a useful life skill for everyone, whatever their sexuality. Trying to get male attention Um, really? This is so annoying. No really, they think bisexuality is a myth and they think if I date a man, I become straight, and then if I date a woman I miraculously become gay again… rather than, you know, thinking I might just like men AND women?
Also, being different is great! Claim the freedom to make important decisions about your life for yourself. If you feel bad about your own sexuality, TALK about it, in the way that suits you most, with someone understanding and trustworthy.
And keep your chin up — it will get better, promise! April Next review due: